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Weee.....

I am happy.
I am happy that I am now 3.
I am happy that my mom is back with me.
I am happy that my father is no more grumpy.
I am happy that tok and nek love me.
I am happy there are Aunt and Suri.
I am happy that I am healthy.
I am happy as can be.

The other day, me with my dad and my mom, together with my aunt and cousin, Suri, visited the airport. That was what my father told me. Don’t really knew why we were there, but I liked the place.
There were so many people. Some were sitting, some were standing, most were queing up and a lot more seems busy walking from one end to another.

My Mom and me

Aunt and Suri

But all those happenings don’t bother me at all. I felt really comfortable in my carriage, cuddled calmly with my blanket in this soothing cool environment. Even with all the bright lights up above my head, I have no problem at all. Closing my eyes and dreaming away, enjoying the great condition all around me.

Now everyone can dream... zzzz

Today, my moms said she has to go to the airport again, but I will not be following. She said she will be flying to Bangkok to attend to some urgent matters. She told me to behave because my father will be taking care of me for these few days. And my aunt will be there too, to help me to behave.

Now I know why we were at the airport the other day. It was to prepare her for the journey today. I saw her holding on to a little brown book with some papers in it the other day. And I saw her holding the same little brown book with some papers in it again today. I wish I can have a little brown book with some papers in it ,just like my mother, so that I can also follow my mother.

Well, I hope my mom will be back soon and until then, I hope I can behave.

The domain where I came from was a warm and cozy environment, and it takes time for me to adjust to the various sights, sounds, and sensations of life outside that domain. I spend my time moving in and out of several different states of sleepiness, quiet alertness, and active alertness.

Sleepiness is the state when I am full, just after feeding and would really love to just close my eyes and dream away.

Quite alertness is the state when I am just not sleepy anymore or is just that I am not comfortable with my wetness condition down below.

Active alertness is when I am hungry, thirsty and really in need of feeding. And I get more active when no one acknowledges this or when my father keeps asking me what I want. He knows what I want but he pretends he doesn’t know. And that is when I cry.

The only way I know to communicate is by crying, but you can communicate with me through your voice and your touch because I can now recognize your voice and pick it out among others.

I love to be held, caressed, kissed, stroked, massaged, and carried. My farther and grand dad likes to do that to me. I may even make an “ah” sound when I hear their voices or see their faces.
Anyway I spend most of my time either sleeping or eating. My father likes to wake me up for a feeding especially if I slept for more than four to five hours. As a newborn, I should be feeding about 8-12 times a day. But sometimes the dreams are to good to be ignored, so I want to sleep longer.
But lately, I get hungry more often. So I drink and feed more often too. Probably that is what they call growing.

Had a weird yellow kind of feeling around me last week, but after a few days of good sun tanning every morning, I seem to be feeling great now.
And yes, those nappy rash… argh… really bothers me every time I had nappy change. But all is gone now after my parents change to another kind of nappy brand and fluff me with nice cooling white powder down below at every nappy change.
All in all, everything is great and fine and I am really happy with all the attention that is given to me.

World… Here I am, at last.
It has been about 5 days now since I am out of my domain.
The world, sure is much different than the place that I have been.
Well before I go on, describing the world that I have started to live in, let me relate to you what I had gone through so far.

Me in a tray

On the day that I was lifted up from my domain, I was actually cuddling peacefully and positioning myself comfortably with my head resting somewhere near the opening that was closed. Suddenly, I felt the fluid that had kept me floating all this while,
Started to flow out from my domain.
And then I saw a light, piercing through my domain and it looked like an opening was made somewhere else than where I had expected. I then felt like being pushed towards the opening and a pair of hands, much bigger than my hands, came down from the opening and grabbed me out from my domain. Bright lights surrounded me. I just had to shut my eyes tight.
I felt the presence of several huge figures surrounding me and also sensed the presence of my mom and dad.
But only for a while cause I was then being whisked away and were wrapped, cleaned, turn side to side, and many other situation that I had to put up with, till I was finally rested on a small tray and kept warm in a room filled with others like me.
In this world, there is nothing for me to feed on, I had to cry if I wanted to be fed. In fact, I had to cry for almost anything that I wanted. All those people around me did not understand my needs unless I cried. And so crying is what I am good at right now.
A few days later, I was taken to another place where there are less people. I feel more comfortable here and even more attention was given to me, especially from these 2 people that they called “Tok” and “Nenek”.
And my Mom with another called “Dean” took care of me well, very well indeed.
But no so my Dad, he disturbed more often than caring with his ‘hom’ and ‘chup’ and ‘kot’, especially in the day. Sometimes I feel like he’s trying not to let me have my sleep in the day, probably to make me feel very sleepy in the night.
Anyways, I feel very comfortable in this place and if this is going to be my world, then I will certainly love it.

I was being spied again yesterday… while I am sleeping and having a good dream.
I dreamt about… now what did I dream about? I dream about…. ahhhhhhhhh, I can’t remember!!

Posted by My Fathertobe

I know why I can’t remember, it is because of all that spying and ogling by those guys out there, busy doing all those poking and rubbing on the walls of my domain.
They interrupted my dream, and got me all work up.
They are a noisy bunch of guys too. I heard them talking about wanting me out early, repeatedly mentioning “12 fab”, “11 fab”, “admitted 10 fab”, “labour”, “c sack”….hmmm.

What is that “12 fab”, “11 fab”…. what is fab??
“c sack” ???

Why they want me out early for? I am happy where I am.. well although there seems to be little room now for me to move around but I am still comfortable. This fluid that I’m drinking and keeps me afloat is plenty and great. My domain is also now looks very firm and secured. Why must I go out early?

Heard them saying that if I am out on the “11 fab” then, it will be easier for them to manage me, there will someone coming over from “bangkok” to help manage me and assist my mothertobe.
“Bangkok”… where is that, is it another domain, when I am out there can I go to “bangkok” ???

Anyway, I am happy in here and I wish I could be here longer.
And I also wish that they stopped disturbing my sleep and my dream.
I am going back to my dream now…
…what is my dream earlier??….

Ahhhhhhhhhh…. I can’t remember…

Hello, I am about 34 weeks old now.
Let me update you on what I have gone through since my last posting.

For the past 20 weeks, I have been drinking this fluid that surrounds me from top to bottom. And after some sips of that fluid, I feel I had to let go… yup, let go some fluid as well. And the more I let go, the tastier that fluid becomes and the more I feel like sipping it.
Well, you see, all this drinking and letting go of that fluid not just to quench my thirst, I feel it also helps me to develop my lungs, kidneys, feels more easily digesting fluid and make my breathing good as well.
I think this fluid is interesting and sure hopes that this fluid is plenty out there.

Earlier, I noticed I have this fuzzy kind of subtance on my head but now, they all gone and instead I have hair, yes, hair… a few strands here and there, growing more every day and I do look pretty with them on.

And my nails, they are long now, long enough to reach the tip of my fingers and some are beyond. Good for scratching my face, nose, body and legs.
I do feel itchy sometimes you know.

And talking about my face, body and limbs, I think I look fat now. I do not know what I have been eating, all these while, I have only been drinking fluid, day in, day out. Maybe this cord that I am attached to has something to do with all these accumulation of fats on my face, arms and legs. My skin has also becoming less wrinkled.

My reflexes have now improved too. Previously, whenever I intend to turn my head to the left, it’s my body that turns instead and I end up facing to the right. I felt complicated. But now, I can turn my head wherever I want, my hands and legs also helps me to turn, change or move my position to whatever I want. And now my favourite position is head down, resting my head near an opening which seems to be closed.

And my domain now looks smaller and smaller as the day goes by, and slowly but surely, I think I am going to be stuck in this head down position all the way. And when that happens, I don’t think I am comfortable with that, so that is why I am saying I am coming out soon.

In fact, I am hearing all this chattering outside my domain, talking about “12 Fab” and “c-sack” and those words been heard many times now whenever those people out there talking about me going out there.

I wonder…

It has been a long week of rest and relaxation. No disturbance so far from that balloon like thing just outside my domain, though I can’t really figure out if it is getting bigger or smaller. But after being neighbours for that long, it doesn’t seem menacing at all now. I am feeling safe and comfortable more than ever in my domain.

And it has been a long week of recuperation and recreation too for me. While I am sleeping here in my domain, I just can’t help growing as well. My domain does seem to be a little smaller now. Whenever I tried to stretch I would have to like kick or press my head against the walls of my domain. I hope that would not hurt or cause any alarm to my mothertobe because I do need to extend my limbs and body once a while. My toes and fingers are also growing to a considerable length and even growing toenails as well.

And now, it will be more weeks of reaffirmation and reception of all the nutrients through the cord that binds me to my mothertobe, so as to reassure and reinforce the connection that we have, till the day I am ready to see her world.

I am getting a lot of good, happy feeling vibes lately. I wonder if it is because of me growing fine and steadily in here… or that my mothertobe is now glad that she does not have to get under those painful needles anymore…. or maybe something or someone out there in their world is making my mothertobe feeling good and happy. If it is a someone, then I would prefer to be like that someone and make my mothertobe feel good and happy always.

Anyway yesterday, I was being spied again. Someone was ogling me all over. Every part of me was scrutinized. I tried my best to hide myself in my domain and even tried to curl up as much as possible. But someone is persistent. Then suddenly a snap… “chekechet “… kind of sound. Don’t really know what they are trying to do out there, inspecting me closely and thoroughly like that.

But I do hope they will notice this balloon like thing on the right side of my domain. It is about a fifth of my size and looks like there is fluid inside. I can sense that my mothertobe is not comfortable with it sometimes and probably that is the reason she is not sleeping on her right side these few days. I wish that thing would not grow any bigger. I wish that thing would not create any more discomfort to my mothertobe or even harm her. And I wish that thing would go away, or shrink on its own and gone forever.

Well, below is a snapshot of me, that’s what my fathertobe claim it is, but really I just could not make something out of it.

What is that?

Posted by: Fathertobe

Yesterday, was a joyous day indeed, for my  extended family.

Cute Naeema

Hi!! Princess

A new member arrived, healthy and cute, in the morning of Friday, 4th September 2009, at 7.41 A.M, the little princess, of both Rene Raaziq Bonvang and Norlin Fajri and her name is Naeema.

Mother-Naeema-Father

Just couldn’t wait to hug her, and kiss her. I hope to meet her this coming Raya Festival. And I hope next year  February, she will get to meet the other would be member to this extended family.
Hmmm…. will that be her uncle or aunt ….?

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Yesterday, I sensed that my mothertobe was feeling some pain. I guessed it must be that jab which she had to receive once in every 3 days. In fact, there was a time when she had to receive those jab almost everyday. Even 2 more jabs, everyday as well, which I can really sensed it to be quite near my domain, probably around her…. What you called it… tummy…. Yeah.. Her tummy.

That’s a total of 3 jabs in a day, for about 2 months of my reckoning. That period had been very taxing for her and I am thankful that she had endured all those painful moments courageously.

All those jabs were important to me coz during that period, there was these menacing red color fluid outside my domain just behind my back, which sometimes seems to be as big as me. But I fear not coz I sensed that my domain wall was thick and strong…. Strong enough to deter all that came crushing on it. And all that was because of the strength that my domain got from those jabs.

That one jab was Proluton and that two jabs were Innohep. Proluton and Innohep were my friends and with them guarding my domain, I have no fear and in fact, I was so comfortable, I don’t even feel a pinch.

But since last week, I have not seen Innohep, and even Proluton visits me occasionally. I sensed that yesterday might be Proluton last visit.
I am going to miss them…. I will miss them.
Thank you and goodbye my friends.